Tuesday, August 31, 2010 '
I want to prove to those people,
I want to prove that they're wrong,
And laugh at them just like what they did to me.
It's a way of letting out my feeling,
Make myself feel better,
And let myself off the hook for awhile.
But the satisfaction never last long
The hurt left was too deep
Firstly, I tried to change myself, changed.
Then, I tried to change my thinking, to let go
I thought I could
Thought I did
Then I realized, I'm still stuck in that memory.
How to make it all go away?
How can I forget?
Monday, August 23, 2010 '
HELLO! So dusty!
There's so many things I want to do but...
Hmm, cannot say no time.
I'm so free! :/
Okay, I shall draw during my break :D
And tidy my table during break and make it nice nice :D
Okay, alot have been going on but I dont know where to start.
Hmm, had been shopping and bought so many stuff!
HEH! So happy! :D
And B. accompany me :D
And will be going to MS more often I guess, happy happy :D
Very long never go there le, until yesterday HAHAHA
The latest with pictures is gathering for Wuhan peeps! :D
HAHAHA, miss them!
But alot of them never go lorh, but still fun without them, dont care them, cheat my feeling
Okay, pictures!
We went to TomNToms at Far East
Overall, I dont recommend this place.
Only a couple of the food sold was not bad.
And as for the drinks, Starbucks is still the best :D
The drinks at TomNToms were too dilute, the taste wasnt very strong in my opinion.
My phone camera obviously was lousy, haha :D
This is my toast :D
Not bad larh...
It's cheese and honey plus toast
Would prefer it without honey thought
B's toast.
Not nice at all!
It's garlic and honey plus toast.
1. honey and garlic? no thanks
2. the garlic spread wasnt even bake together with the toast! So it's like very raw.
The garlic spread is those that you can buy from supermarket kind, not special.
Even my secondary school's garlic bread taste nicer cause they put the garlic spread on the toast then bake it together unlike TomNToms.
My Dar Dar's toast :D
Okay larh, the cream not bad, also with honey.
My drink, green mint tomochinno.
Like what I've said, taste very dilute.
Starbucks nicer.
Our drinks.
Cute right! :D
This drink belongs to *see below*
Him, lol! :D
Food!
My cute cute dar dar :D
WJ
Peeps! :D
Jia En came late, hahaha, not surprised. :D
And my dar dar looking funny HAHAHA :D
Andy the ang moh came late too!
HAHAHA, Jia En's bloated and despicable me inspired face! HAHAHA :D
Our first polaroid! :D
Nice!
HAHAHA, another photo of my dar dar again :D
Introduce you all to this woman who anyhow hit me and stayed with me in Wuhan (same room for any outing trips) she randomly hit me after the movie we watched finish! But still love her :D The woman on the left!
The picture above! Jia En's smile damn nice right! :D
So cute!
I love Essential! :D
Jia En became our model when she walk away after picking up a call from dont know who :D
Lime ice cream, not bad :D
Random, Huishan's jewellery box, nice righttttttttt! :D
Okay bye bye, going out soon to watch Step Up 3! :D
I want to remember why I started dancing.
My passions for so many things were lost, but I'm trying to find them back now.
I'm trying to get back my goals in life. (:
JY! (:
Wednesday, July 21, 2010 '
I never really know how to show my emotions
I dont know how to say how I feel, what I want
When I feel heart-broken, I even need to hurt myself to know what is pain, then will I feel the hurt in my heart
Or I wouldnt even know how much pain I'm in except that I felt angry all the time
You all always thought that I was keeping things, but you never thought that I didnt do it on purpose
It's just that I dont know how to show it, how to say it and it's also my nature to be secretive
It's not what I want
It's just the way I am
Why cant you all accept me the way I am?
On Monday, I accidentally hurt myself
The wound hurts alot surprisingly
But when my tears suddenly spill out, it's not the wound that hurts so much I cried...
It seems like the pain I felt transferred itself to my heart and made me feel how much pain I was in
Wednesday, July 14, 2010 '
FML!
I really dont wish to smile today
I rather be a grumpy old woman
This place is like so dusty I'm sure no one comes here anymore
Maybe I should make it private...
I feel like going to MS, very long never go there already, miss it
Just wanna shut down my mind and turn off my heart
FML
Want something sweet ):
Later someone go buy milk tea with meeeeeeeeeee... ):
This feeling of emptiness, just end it or dont let it come back again
Which will you choose?
Sunday, July 4, 2010 '
I found that I've lost my goals and passions
Where can I find them back?
Everytime I would tell myself:
I'll do what I'm passionate about during the holidays, I'll do it!
So just continue studying now and put aside my passion cause Singapore's industry for it isnt big.
And everytime I said that, I'll just continue doing all the research, all the calculations and stuff, and everytime holidays come, I'll be too tired.
Or I'll even tell myself, study hard now and when I grow up, I'll work in some industries that got high paying job and after that I'll do what I really like.
I dont know how many times I told myself that, but now, I'm tired of it.
I dont even know what I really like now, I'm just living day by day doing what I'm suppose to do
There's a person I really dont like for the things she did in the past, however I'm really inspired by her.
Years ago until now, it's still the same.
But I dont have the courage to do it now, because I cant give up on what I've started, I dont want to know that I've wasted my time, made the wrong choice and giving up in the end.
How? ):
Saturday, July 3, 2010 '
Was celebrating Huishan's early birthday today :D
Went to Redhill ABC foodcourt with Huishan, Lina and Malisah :D
It's the first time we went to food court to celebrate birthday but we had lotta fun! :D
LOL, we ate non-stop for hoursss, oh gosh!
The fats coming!
Was thinking through some stuff...
Then I realise actually I'm forcing myself to please others
Thinking of it, I think I shouldnt because one day, I'll just push them away because of it.
I know maybe they'll feel hurt but I just want to say I dont want it, not because of my feelings, it's just the way I am.
Sorry.
And I've said that word so many times already.
Thursday, June 10, 2010 '
I think pimples popping out are more stressful that exam :/
But oh well, exams are stressful afterall that's why everyone suddenly got a couple more bumps
EMAT went well
AnChem... hmm, please let me get a border line A please! *pray* LOL :D
Then TPHM, haha, havent take but think can get my A :D
Okay, update tomorrow about AnChem if possible, heh...
If I'm not lazy to come blogger.
Even though it's just typing a b then a couple of clicks to update, it still seems like a hard thing to do, hmm.
Lazy enough :D
Heh, love.
EXTRA NOTE: I want to go Malaysia during the 2 weeks vacation, anyone wants to go too? Maybe I can pursuade my mama if *ehem*Lina*cough* wants to go too :D
Heh :D
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Okay, like seriously.
I totally died for AnChem ):
EMO.
I think this holiday I'll be hardworking and study
And dance :D
Heh :D
Okay, JIA YOU!
Must study AnChem and practice dance! :D
Oh oh, and watch drama, heh, so many things to do so little time...
Still got GLEE at Ponneh's house :D
HEH, and IEEM :/
Stupid MRT event.
HEH! :D
